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9 months, 2 weeks, 2 days.

Life continues to amaze me, every single day, for real. It can be so fucking long, but when you look back, it seems like a short period of time that many, many times was wasted. Or dealt with. Or enjoyed. Maybe both. Each person's personal journey is, I believe, an amazing experience, and so far mine's proving to be quite... interesting. Half a year ago I was hoping mom and dad could come up with the money to send me to college, and now I am actually studying a carrer I love in a city that's bigger than... well, almost every other city I've ever visited. 9 months, 2 weeks and 2 days ago, I would have never had guessed I would be the one taking tough choices. I wasn't even aware I was corageous.

I've fallen in love with college. Yes, it is a little hard adjusting oneself to a whole new life, without mom cooking everyday or mom driving me to places. It was hard to leave new and old friends behind, but, oh man... making new friends and meeting new people is the best thing ever! I was assigned an evening/night schedule. I hated it at first, but it's grown on me. It's not that bad going to school at night. In fact, I think I'm getting more work done. So far, I've done every project and turned every paper in time! I hope I can keep up with the rythm, because I know that I'm capable. I can even cook myself a decent meal, clean up the house and still do homework. If I don't make it as an industrial designer, I know I'll be the best housewife/maid ever.

I've gained a lot of weight D:

I love taking pictures at night with no flash. You never know what shapes the lights will form.


Born to blossom, bloom to perish.

I was listening to Gwen Stefani this morning, and this phrase took a whole new meaning.

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It was one of those mornings.

Days ago my mom told my circle of friends was waaaaay too small. I hate it because when mom says stuff like that:
  1. She's always right (Mothers have that ~sixth sense~ when it comes to their children, I've always believed)
  2. She says it because she means no harm and wants what's best for me.
  3. 1 and 2.
I can't help but to think about what she said. I'm super excited about moving to a new city in a couple of months and making new friends. ¡Ya necesito que me den otros aires! Sometimes all you need is shrug things off and start all over again, no matter what. I want to look at this entry months from now and be like 'Oooh, yeah.... I remember thaaat....' and laugh at it or something similar.

Today, when I woke up, I had one of those mornings when I look back and think about decisions I've made in the past and how they've affected me. Basically, I always end up asking myself  'What if...?' and try to think about what would have happened in a lot of scenarios had I not taken some decisions. I know it's useless, but it keeps my mind off annoying stuff and time flies by.


Jealousy gets the best of me.

I know I'm not even twenty yet and that I'll probably live another 60 years, but still I feel I've been through a lot. It's a little stupid, right? Seriously, how can small, simple events like those happening during our daily lives change us? Well, I don't know how or why, but they do. I suppose we change because things change are we're emotionally attached to them. When I look back and analyze the last two years of my life, I realize that I am who I am right now because of those two years. Two years only. Man, time sure does fucking fly by. I see my family, my friends and myself and I realize that somehow, I've changed because they've changed and they've changed because I've changed, too.
Sometimes I find it hard to believe that my life is just beginning, and that I still have a lot to learn and a whole world to see. So many people are out there, and the right moment is waiting to happen and trigger a friendship. I'm looking forward for new friends. A new school awaits and if everything goes according to plan, I will begin a new semester in a different city. I just have to remind myself -constantly- that whatever happens, I have to make the most of it. I have to keep on walking, even if it seems difficult sometimes.


Writer's Block: Theme Song

What song would you choose as the theme song for your life?
Well, I'm still very young, so I guess I don't have *~the~* song yet. Still, there are some songs that I believe represent me quite well. First, I would choose Cool, by Gwen Stefani. I know it's about a breakup and a friendship afterwards, but I think it suits the most meaningful relationship I have outside my family. My friendship with my bestest friend in the whole universe has gone through some rough patches, but thanks to karmic retribution and fate, we've been able to sort our differences out and I think we're closer than ever. Ale Villegas, you crazy bitch, I fucking love you.

Second, I would choose Bohemian Like You, by The Dandy Warhols. Mainly because it's such a fun song, the kind of song you just dance your ass off to without caring about anything or anybody. And, oh, well, because I do feel bohemian like you.

Finally, I would say The Passenger, not by Iggy Pop, but by Siouxsie and the Banshees. Well, I chose it because you can dance to it and -cheesy comment coming next- we are all passengers someway or another. I don't know if I'll end up friendless or without education tomorrow, but still, as a passenger, my ride is being fun as hell.

(Other songs would be Just a girl, Llama por favor and Sunday Morning, but let's not go into detail about those.)

Apr. 14th, 2009

I had a weird dream about my best friend the other night. Me and my family were visiting her and her family, and they were really nice to me in my dream. They always are, so it was good to 'see' them. I guess I truly, truly miss her. Her family is like my family. Her sisters call me bro and the oldest one, who has a child, refers to me as 'Uncle Juan'. I admire my friend's free spirit and her kindness. She's wonderful. Eventhough I don't get to see her every day (I only see her for about a week the entire year) and even if we don't speak every day ('cuz she's being international and now lives in Africa), I feel really blessed to have her in my life. I can't wait for winter break to see her and hang out with her!

In other news, my face looks like that right now: :@

Yaay, I don't know how (divine intervention, perhaps), but I finally figured out how to use photobucket and upload images in my entries (I know it's no rocket science, but then again, I've always been kinda slow).